EVERYTHING MAKES ME MISS YOU!

Happy St. Patrick's day to my Irish father Noel! Miss you and love you! Send me the luck of the Irish will ya? forever in my heart and on my mind.

I wonder if I missed out

Last night, I stumbled upon the "Colorado Mesa University Confessions Page" &  a "CMU Missed connections page". Reading through countless logs it made me wonder if I have missed out on the "college experience." There were post about parties (the kind you think of when you think of college), and more disturbing party/ sex stories that my virgin eyes didn't need to read. Although I am sure some of these logs are made up, some are also real. People detailed countless drunken nights, awkward dates and missed connections. I honestly couldn't relate to ANY of the posts on the "Confessions Page." At first it made me wonder if Mesa had changed that much since I left (become more of a party school) or if I was just nieve and had missed out on a right of passage. While I will NEVER be the girl that has random meaningless sex, and gets drunk every weekend, I see nothing wrong with going to an occasional party. You could say I was a part of the "Jesus group" at Mesa (which I am proud of) & the "housing group" which meant parties I went to included board games, movies and snacks. I guess maybe I am longing for someone i'll never be. I definitely would not change my friends at Mesa or anything I did while I was there because it was the BEST but sometimes you gaze at the other side and wonder is the grass is greener? I'm turning 22 this month and have never been drunk, never been out clubbing, partying or to a bar (for the specific purpose of just drinking and meeting guys). I don't like makeup or short dresses. I know I am a cool person, so why do I feel the need to prove my self through these ridiculous acts that other girls put on? I don't know.... I feel like I'm missing out and i'll be the English teacher forever alone with my books. Rant done.