Sleepless but not in Seattle

I am sleepless but not in Seattle and sadly there is no perfect boy waiting for me atop a high building to declare his undenying love
ha! as if that could be my reality.
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Tonight like most college nights is one of restlessness and rememberance
I am thinking how proud I am of you.
You over came adiction, depression and self hate.
You however did not overcome Bioplar disorder
as that will be with you the rest of your life.
You must learn to live and love youself.
You won't have it easy,
You must fight every day.
I want you to know above all else that
I love you and you should love you too!
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I am remembering and reliving the pain of adolecense. The pain of first loves. The pain of trying to fit in to a world where you don't belong. The pain of fnding out who you are. The pain of parents. The pain of fake friendships and the times when music is the only source you can trust. People say all the pain, heartache and struggle is worth it in the end. Why can't it be worth something now? I believe it can! You struggle so that you can conquor and over come. You hurt so that you know true love when you find it. You lose so you know to be thankful for what you have. You win and you learn to smile. You fall and you get back up. You let go so you can learn to live. You dance and the whole world is watching. You sing loud enough that the whole world can hear. You make mistakes so you can learn to sing and dance and you help others learn along the way. I believe each stuggle, each pain is worth something NOW! Live for this moment now! Carpe diem!

-Drea
I know this is really just a rant/ramble but I really needed this now off into a deep slumber!