I wrote this on Sunday June 13, 2010 and it still rings true today....

1. I am shy and awkward unless I am around my best friends. 
2. I want to end war, suffering, global poverty and change the world but I don’t believe in myself enough to accomplish my dreams. 
3. I love and respect pretty much everyone but if you lie to me I probably won’t respect or like you. 
4. I’ll tell anyone about Africa – facts, my trip there, my love for the continent and its people- I could talk about it for hours. 
5. I write poetry and one day I hope I am brave enough to share it on a stage in front of a crowd (I am actually a published poet!) 
6. I hate being judged and hate it when I see myself judging others. 
7. I often feel worthless because I don’t fight for human rights and peace every second of every day that I live. 
8. Sometimes I think my morals and beliefs hold me back from truly living life as a 19 year old. I wonder what I am missing. 
9. I am NEVER quite satisfied. 
10. My greatest fear is not dying alone, my greatest fear is not living up to the plan God has for me. I know I am supposed to be a great humanitarian! 
11. I judge myself and hold myself to moral standards that even I can’t live up to.
12. I talk to myself; a lot actually. 
13. I hate drama and I manage to stay away from it most the time. 
14. I don’t believe in the old sang “forgive and forget” instead I tell you “forgive and don’t forget” once you forget you allow history to repeat it’s self. 
15. I believe everything is a form of art. 
16. I can’t drive a car or ride a bike- they scare the hell out of me. I guess it’s because I don’t trust myself with mine or someone else’s life. 
17. For a long time all I wanted more than anything was a guy that would make me feel worthy as a woman. I am learning to love myself now but wouldn’t mind if a cute boy wanted to take me out on some cliché or non-cliché dates. 
18. I love to dance but you’ll never catch me doing it in public. I think I only danced 3 times at the dances in high school. 
19. One of my favorite things to do is swing in the park! I used to play a game where I would try to touch the moon or tree branches with my feet. It gave me the feeling of flying. I wish I could fly! 
20. I want to believe in love and marriage but the divorce rate and marriages I have seen in my own life make me believe less and less each day. 
21. I usually have more guy friends then girls- my mom used to get upset that all my friends were male- and I tend to confide in them more because there honest, straight forward and drama free! I love all my guy friends! (No offence to my girls! I love yall too!) 
22. I wish I was more confident and willing to accept who God has made me. 
23. I speak the language of sarcasm fluently- this sometimes offends people. I am sorry but the house I grew up in spoke it fluently at the dinner table so I have learned from the best. 
24. I believe music, food and sports breaks are the three things all barriers and connect people of different race, religions and backgrounds together. 
25. I love making mix CD’s. It’s what I do. If you ever need a themed CD or random CD let know!