It's not all clear now but in the future it will be...

Steve Jobs--Apple CEO and visionary--once said, "you can only connect the dots looking backwards." By this he meant that you can't fully see God's plan for your life when you are living it. It is only once you are removed from that time period in which you can reflect and "connect the dots." Right now the picture of my life is not all clear but, I can really feel that this is a year I will look back on years from now and say, "wow, I didn't know it then but God was doing some really super sweet stuff in my life!" These 3.5 years since I graduated high school have been crazy and I honestly don't regret anything. I am happy with the woman I am becoming. For the first time in my life I feel at peace with where God has placed me. I  still day dream about traveling and world adventures almost constantly but I now realize the importance of what I am doing right now and how God will connect all these dots in the future. I just feel really excited about my major and can't wait until I am actually a teacher-- I have begun ignoring those voices that tell me I can't do it, that it's too hard, that I won't succeed and that I am not smart enough. I can't believe I bought into those lies for this many years. This time of year is extremely important to me. So many memories, anniversary's both good and sad that are coming up. 4 years since I was in Africa, 1 year since my beautiful friend passed on and 1 year since meeting my Tanzanian brother Heri for the first time. It's really a time that makes me reflect.