It’s been 3 years and 8 days since I last saw you
It’s been 1,103 days since I last saw you
It’s been 26,288 hours since I last saw you
It’s been 1,577,847.6 minutes since I last saw you
You were telling me about running away to the mountains
And I didn’t tell you then
Something I wish I had told you now
And those three simple words could have saved your life
You were running
But no matter how far you ran
Your secrets followed you
Not even the ends of the earth
Or the most secluded place in our known galaxy
Could keep your secrets away
You were hungry for freedom
But inside you had a chain around your heart
Those secrets were your best friend and your worst enemy
I thought I could help you
I thought I could heal you
But what the hell did I know?
I was only sixteen
And you only fifteen
Fresh out of rehab
Some days I swore I could smell the previous nights rave
That clung to your clothes
Inside my head
I scolded you for the drugs
And the girls
And your friends who were a bad influence
But those three words were never said
For fear that I would lose you
But in the end I lost you anyway
If I could go back
I’d still hold you close like I did that day
But this time I’d yell
With as much courage as I could muster
And as much strength as I had
With my heart beating
Adrenalin rushing through my body
Screaming at the top of my lungs
With every ounce of passion I felt for you
The fear in my eyes
I would yell
“Don’t do it!”
But I didn’t yell that day
I hugged you as tight as I could
And with a tear in my eye
I watched as you walked away
Hidden behind your secrets
For
3 years and 8 days
1,103 days
26,288 hours
1,577,847.6 minutes
I speculated if you had died
But I hoped that you had forged your path
Towards freedom




















