Had this yelled at me by a guest speaker in class

he looked right at me, pointed at me, asked me to stand up and said,

"Love what you do, there are a thousand ways to kneel and kiss the Earth" -Rumi 

he then repeated it yelling with all his might.


*thanks stranger.

W0RDZ

I remember when I was at Mesa someone I had never met or seen came up to me and said, "I have seen you around and you alawys look like your having fun." That was it. That was all they said. Simple but it really impacted me. Funny, no one has said that to me at Metro. Maybe that says something.

Art I made inspired by the music of Townz VanZant

bahaha stuff found on the internet

"I have been thrashed and humbled by waves in both the Atlantic and Pacific Oceans"

That's a quote from a recent essay I wrote about my nature experience.

Anyway, awesome song of the moment.



This is from The Mountain Goat's album Sunset Tree which takes you through the lead singers life growing up which sadly, included a lot of abuse from his step father. Best lines from the song are...

"...lean in close to my little record player on the floor
so this is what the volume knob's for
I listen to dance music
dance music

okay so i'm seventeen years old
you're the last best thing I got going
but then the special secret sickness

starts to eat through you
what am I supposed to do?..." 

The underlined parts show the awesome alliteration used its perfect. This song somehow manages to have a happy tune while being about an extremely intense and sad subject. BRILLIANT! 

2nd time I cried today

http://www.denverpost.com/news/ci_21500111/survivors-heart-tammy-noel-cunningham-life

I can't believe it's been nine months since you passed away

Today is Suicide Awareness day...
I thought of you...
Went to a bathroom on campus and cried....
I will never understand...
& I will miss you for as long as I live...
Wish I could talk to you right now...
& get some good Irish wisdom...

Stoked!!!

& nervous... will add more details later

And then I broke my toe

it hurts like heck
and I am getting sick of my work everyone is so negative
I am negative but only because I am feeling really ill lately

Doctors

Just spent my day at the doctors had blood taken and got my first CT scan man do those feel weird. I just want to not be sick please.

Anis Mojgani

"We forgot what we wanted and we became what we become: waitresses and bartenders, city employees and temp positions, we are junkies and one kiss poems and we cry the stars as we write our scars onto dumpsters and electric boxes because the only thing that we can hear is our hearts" Anis Mojgani

:(

Positive thoughts =ing a positive semester

When school started on Monday I had decide to go into the semester with a positive attitude and guess what happened this week...

- I had a really great start to my semester
- I ate lunch with a homeless man
- Volunteered to serve food to the homeless on campus every other Wednesday
- Recognized people in my classes and made friends
- Tried to be more positive at work
- Got involved with CUE (center for urban education) where I will be doing 60+ hours in a middle school classroom this semester (Stoked!!!)
- Got a position possibly tutoring high school students in English on my campus

I declare that this will be a busy but GREAT semester it will be absolutely positively life changingly LEGEN (wait for it) DARY!

Debbie Downer

Trying to write only positive thoughts this week but I have to put the truth in here and get it out...
The doctors found 6 cysts in my moms breasts they removed the liquid from them and don't think they are cancerous but who knows... my mom and  I are both prone to cysts (I have been through that before) which makes our chances of getting cancer higher welp that's a downer...

Im spendi g my work dinner thinking about how i am not ready for school to start tomorrow

Some nights your old voice is like a whisper
Other nights your old voice is a deep growl
With time I hear it less and less, it's fading
But I can't just let bygones be bygones
When it was your fighting words
That nursed me to sleep with tears every night
My fragile 8th grade mind couldn't comprehend
What it means to have a mentally ill brother
B       I        P       O        L        A        R.
That voice I hear will never fully f a  d   e.

Not actually drunk just posting this because it's stuck in my head

I'm grumpy so BEWARE of this lame post

I don't feel good tonight, I am grumpy and I just want to have a good meaningful conversation with people. I want to have a  'real' chat with someone and get advice.

Reminds me of 'The Old Apartment' BNL

Boy meets world 'do good' memorable line

Topanga Lawrence-Matthews: We wanted to know if you had anything left to teach us. 
George Feeny: No. My work with you is done. 
Shawn Hunter: I don't know. That's pretty scary. Going into a whole new world. 
George Feeny: And you are ready to go into that world. 
Eric Matthews: Even me? 
George Feeny: Even you. Believe in yourselves. Dream. Try. Do good. 
Topanga Lawrence-Matthews: Don't you mean do well? 
George Feeny: No I mean do good.